Tuesday, December 18, 2012


Re: Previous announcement.

I'm going underground with posting on here just in case anything gets linked to Facebook which is the last thing I want right now. But I wanted you guys to know and couldn't keep it secret any longer.

In any case, if you've figured it out already, I ask that you don't post anything on Facebook or link my blog until February at least.

In the mean time I'm still going to be blogging my thoughts but not publishing posts until it's safe to do so. I look forward to being back in early 2013 with tons of new posts and lots to talk about!

Monday, December 10, 2012

Surprise Announcement

I've hidden a secret (non-Facebook friendly) clue somewhere on this page (hint: scroll lots) to share a special surprise announcement with you, lovely blog readers. :)

Sunday, September 9, 2012

Entrance Closet ReVamp

We redid our entrance closet this weekend after a solid 4 years of hating it with every ounce of our soul.

We're renting and can't structurally change anything about the closet and have to be sure it can be "restored" to it's shitty, inconvenient and waste-of-space state it was when we first got the place.

Anywhos... my husband convinced me that running down the street screaming "MARTHA STEWART IS MY BITCH!" would be frowned upon... so posting pictures of it on here will have to do...

Sunday, August 19, 2012

The baby thing

The whole thing about babies and how much we want one has taken over our lives at times, but only because we let it. We want it and we need it to take the center stage in our lives because it's not something to consider lightly. Whether it's given to you naturally or you have to resort to modern medicine like we have.

Sunday morning, after a hot yoga class, I sit in this little cafe sipping my iced americano and reading a book while my husband is out golfing with his buddies. We are meeting for sushi for lunch then heading home to start packing for out trip to Ontario next week. I love this life and there are moments when I think we must be mad to give it all up for a baby.
If I didn't take this time away from the tests, the medication, the procedures and the paperwork, I wouldn't know how much I want this.

That I am able to sit here and reflect on how I love my life in all its messed up glory and appreciate the fact that I would toss it all up in the air without a second of hesitation to have a kid. That is how much I want this. More than anything.

I could sit at home and have a pity party by myself and be miserable and count my cycle days and all the glamorous crap that comes with infertility but I chose not to. So I don't forget what I am willing to give up for it all.

In any case, if children are not in our future at least we'll still have a life when we finally throw in the towel and we won't find ourselves lost and confused on top of being miserable.

I think its most important not to forget who you are and not let your infertility define you. You define your infertility.
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Friday, August 17, 2012

Cricket population GTFO!

We've been having issues with our basement recently being overpopulated with crickets. Like, not even kidding. At any given time you could walk down to the basement and see at least 5 crickets.

I was able to live in complete denial of this until our wonderful plumbing spit out some wonderful sewage slime all over our wonderful basement... which sent all our wonderful little cricket friends to find shelter on the main and second floor of our wonderful PMQ.

Just wonderful.

Crickets chillin' in the sink. Crickets hangin' by the stove. Crickets hiding under the area rug. Crickets every.fuckin.where.

After walking around with a cricket corpse on a paper towel Tuesday night and yelling "BE WARNED LITTLE BITCHES!", the house was significantly quieter on Wednesday evening. This proves that my plan to spike little cricket heads on toothpicks by the front door wasn't such a crazy idea.

Thursday, August 16, 2012

Who does that?!

Actual conversation at the store today:

Me: Hum, excuse me - I had some clothes in a change room and now they are just gone... did you move them?
Mistake-immune-lady: Oh, I thought you were done so I put everything back.
Me: So you just assumed I had put everything back on the proper hanger and square folded the jeans...?

Mistake-immune-lady: Yes, it happens all the time.

Me: Right.

Mistake-immune-lady: You can just go around the store and find your things, they are probably just on top of the pile.

Me: Well at least your customers take more care in facing clothes than you do...

**I really wanted to try on some stuff so I actually went back and found most of it... also to be able to have this conversation as I left.

Mistake-immune-lady: You found what you were looking for?

Me: Yes, and I left everything else on the floor like a normal person.


Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Excuse me, where's your tofu?

For some obscure reason, Js and I decided to do our shopping at Sobeys this week... and man what an epic fail!

Deli-dude: Can I help you?
Me: Yes, I'm looking for tofu.
Deli-dude: Uh... what?
Me: Tofu. I can't seem to find any...
Deli-dude: Hum... let me get you someone who can help.

Someone-who-can't-help: You're looking for what...? Tofu?
Me: Yes.
Someone-who-can't-help: Wow... hum... hold on.

After a quick inspection of the sausage display, dairy and the cheese section (!!), Someone-who-can't-help decided to go looking for a manager. I hang around and wait while Js goes looking in the produce section.

Someone-who-can't-help: You're looking for tofu, right?
Me: Yes. It's white, normally comes in a brick like cheese.
Someone-who-can't-help: Micheal said to look in produce.

I followed Someone-who-can't-help to the produce section. She stared at the peppers and mushrooms for a solid minute.

Someone-who-can't-help: I don't think we have any...
Me: Well there's ground-round there but I need the plain tofu.
Someone-who-can't-help: Ground what?
Me: Ground round. *picks up package*
Someone-who-can't-help: Oh. Well... I can't see any, but I have seen some at other stores. Have you tried Bulk Barn or Superstore.
Less-and-less-patient-me: It's not rare. I know I can go buy it somewhere else, my goal here is not to.

This would be totally normal if we were at a little mom-and-pop grocery ... but really Sobeys? And not only that, but from the staff reaction (read: repulsion) I'm pretty sure it wasn't just sold out temporarily.

They also didn't have any kind of dairy-free coffee-creamer-type-deal. However, there were three fridges full of flavored creamer. We promptly gave up on finding the rest of our items and headed to the till...

Cashier-n00b: Did you find everything you were looking for?
Js: Nope.
Cashier-n00b: *blank-stare-of-fear-and-confusion*
Js: Never mind. Yes, yes we found everything.

Then we got to the produce on the little scale and all the confusing numbers and codes. I'd like to start by saying that I totally admire cashiers who know every single code. Their minds have clearly evolved to a higher state of knowledge and awareness... Cashier-n00b, however has not.

Cashier-n00b: Do you know what this is?
Js: A red onion.
Cashier-n00b: And this?
Js: Cilantro.
Cashier-n00b: ... hum... and this?
Js: LIMES! They're limes.

At this point, I give up on trying to hide my face and I have to turn around to wipe the laughter tears rolling down my face. Are you serious?! I get you probably don't know the code but have you never seen a lime before?

Cashier-n00b: Will that be debit?
Js: No, credit.
Cashier-n00b: Ok.
Js: It says "card not supported".
Cashier-n00b: Oh, try again.
Js: Still nuthin'.
Cashier-n00b: Is that debit?
Js: No. No. It's credit.
Cashier-n00b: Oh. It's a different button. There try again.
Js: But that's what I... you asked... *facepalm*

Monday, June 11, 2012

Moment of Reality

I'm having a sucky this-whole-infertility-stuff sucks a whole lot more than usual day. I don't want a pity-party, it's just my reality for today. It's part of my reality every day but some days are easier than others. It took me a long time to come to terms with these emotions and feelings of inadequacy. I'm doing better now but I still have quite a way to go.

I'm starting another round of treatments today. While my heart fills with a renewed hope, my head fills with renewed doubt, fear and hate for my body.

Sunday, May 20, 2012

Suspended Herb Garden DIY

aka my millionth attempt at gardening.

I was inspired by a DYI tutorial I found online to create my own. It's a pretty simple concept and after browsing the web a bit, I realized that a lot of tutorials out there make it sound a lot more complicated than it really is.

Here's what you need (click on the picture to zoom in):

Start by punching holes in the bottom of your cans for drainage using the nails and hammer.

Then, find a soft surface you won't mind poking a few holes in (I chose a pile of dirt in your backyard) and carefully punch two holes 2 to 3 inches apart about a quarter of an inch from the edge puncturing from the inside of the can.

Next, pass a length of twine's both ends through the holes and tie a couple knots or a heavy-duty one. You can always tweak the length of your twine later by pulling on the end from inside the can tying another knot and cutting the excess twine.

Then I hung up the first can and figured out the height and how I was going to lay them all out. I trimmed the twine to the proper length and hung them all up to see before filling them with herby goodness.

And voila!


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